Jayne Hook could not be happier – she has two healthy and happy sons and is happily married.
But the 42-year-old has endured a terrible, seven year ordeal to finally get her happy ending.
Jayne, from Thatcham, Berkshire, has had seven miscarriages and had to deliver her stillborn daughter when she was 30 weeks pregnant.
But she insists her heartbreak and tragedy have made her a better mum to her two boys, Oliver and William.
Jayne said: ““If I could I’d have all three of my children, but having the boys is wonderful.
“I wanted a baby and would have walked over hot coals backwards and had needles poked into my eyes to get one.
“Our long struggle made me appreciate how precious life is and what a gift children are.
“What we went through has made me the mum I am.
“I love, adore and spoil my sons, because I can and that means more to me than anything else in the world.”
Just a year after marrying husband, Steve, in 2004, Jayne fell pregnant.
The stay-at-home mum said: “We weren’t even trying to get pregnant that first year after we married.
“It was more a case of if it happens, it happens, so when we discovered I was pregnant, we were both pleasantly surprised.”
Shortly after her positive pregnancy test, Jayne began to bleed and lost the baby.
She and sales director husband, Steve, also 42, were “disappointed but not distraught”.
Jayne said: “I now knew I could fall pregnant and we both knew we now wanted a baby.
“So, when within a few months I was pregnant again, I felt confident and only a little bit nervous because I thought lightning would not strike twice.”
Again, Jayne was just a few weeks into her pregnancy when she started spotting.
This time her stepdad – a doctor – suggested she should see specialists at the Early Pregnancy Unit in Basingstoke, Hants., who confirmed they could not find a heartbeat.
And when she fell pregnant for a third time at Christmas, 2005, instead of feeling elated, Jayne was worried.
She said: “This time, I was feeling very differently about being pregnant.
“I did not feel the elation I had in my two earlier pregnancies and I was very guarded.”
When she and Steven were told there was no heartbeat and the pregnancy was not viable they were completely devastated.
Jayne said: “We’d got close to nine weeks into this pregnancy and this was the first time I really thought I may not be able to have children.”
In the meantime, Jayne was also dealing with a rare condition that caused a bone growth in her jaw.
The the couple put their plans to start a family on hold for 18 months while she had some corrective procedures.
Then, in the summer of 2008, she fell pregnant again.
Jayne said: “People said we were brave to try again, but we weren’t brave, we were desperate.
“We still couldn’t picture not having a child of our own.”
At last, doctors found a heartbeat and the couple allowed themselves to think their baby could have a future.
Their for their hopes were dashed when, 10 weeks in, the heartbeat became undetectable.
Jayne said: “It hit me like a train. I cried my eyes out.
“It felt more like I had lost a baby than it had before, because we’d got so much further with the pregnancy.
“I felt angry at the world, angry at everybody and very alone.”
Once more, Jayne’s malformed jaw – which has seen her undergo 20 procedures over 12 years – prevented them from trying for another baby so she could have time to recover from surgery.
She said: “Two years went by, then we fell pregnant for the fifth time. But again, there was no heartbeat.”
This time, doctors tested the miscarried foetus, searching for some explanation as to why Jayne could not carry a baby into the second trimester.
She said: “We wanted a reason, even if it meant we would learn we could never have children.
“We could not stay in that place of losing every pregnancy and not knowing why.”
Tests revealed a rare chromosome abnormality had caused their fifth pregnancy to fail, as well as revealing that their baby had been a girl.
Jayne said: “I was relieved to learn there was a problem.
“It sounds cruel when people say it’s ‘Nature’s way,’ but we both knew there was nothing anyone could have done.”
Referred to the multiple miscarriage unit at St Mary’s Hospital in Paddington, west London, for their sixth pregnancy, tragically, like the previous five, it ended in miscarriage after an early scan showed there was no heartbeat.
Jayne said: “I didn’t think I could carry on after that loss.
“As the woman, you feel so responsible when this happens again and again. I told Steven he should be with someone who can have children.
“I was very depressed and again felt very alone, until my stepdad said, ‘It’s not the end of the road, you just need more help’.”
The couple, who had now been desperately trying to start their family for over five years, even considered adoption and surrogacy.
But they decided to try once more with the help of Oxford Fertility, which has pioneered combining IVF with genetic testing.
This meant that the doctors would screen the fertilised embryos and only implant those without genetic mutations.
Implantation worked and finally, at the age of 34, Jayne was pregnant.
With weekly scans to monitor the baby, she and Steven could start to really believe that at the end of what had been a rollercoaster of raised and dashed hopes they would finally come home with their own baby.
Jayne said: “I loved being pregnant and I loved having a visible bump.
“Everything was magical. The baby was fine, I was fine.
“I’d never felt so happy and we decided, when we reached 30 weeks into the pregnancy, to take a ‘babymoon’ to Tenerife.”
But the couple’s long-awaited happiness nosedived when Jayne woke up one morning during their holiday and realised the baby – a little girl they named Poppy – was no longer kicking.
Spanish doctors confirmed she had died in the womb and, after a nightmare journey back to the UK, Jayne delivered a perfect baby girl who had died because the umbilical cord had become knotted.
She said: “Nothing can prepare you for having a stillborn baby.
“We were heartbroken and I felt responsible again. It was as if I was cursed.
“Right up to the last minute, I hoped the Spanish scan had been wrong, but it wasn’t.
“Poppy’s birth was beautiful, bizarre, funny, devastating and sad – all at the same time. And it was long. The delivery took 48 hours.
“On 2 April 2014 she came out, and because of her dark hair and long fingers I thought she looked just like me.
“We will never know what colour her eyes would have been or what her voice would have sounded like, but for the short time we had her, we loved her and felt blessed.
“Steven carried her tiny coffin into the church for her funeral and said, ‘I’ll never get to walk her down the aisle so let me do this for her’.”
Poppy’s death made the couple even more determined to keep going and have a brother or sister for her.
Jayne said: “I had such a yearning, not to replace Poppy but to have a baby.
“We’d come so far and been trying for so many years, we couldn’t give up now.
“Steven and I were completely united in our grief and determination to get pregnant again, so we went straight back to Oxford Fertility after Poppy’s funeral.
“They thought we should wait, but we knew we had to try again straight away, or we would run the risk of losing our nerve and never having a baby.”
The couple’s next IVF treatment failed but the following two resulted in the birth of her two healthy and happy sons, William and Oliver.
Jayne said: “It was a hard pregnancy having William, because I was trying to stay positive about being pregnant still, but also grieving for the loss of Poppy.
“She showed me I could have a baby and although I was very anxious the whole time I was carrying William, I prayed to her to help us get there.
“He was delivered at 35 weeks, because I was so anxious I couldn’t go full term and when he was born, everyone in the room including the consultant, cried.”
Her firstborn son was the spitting image of Poppy, which Jayne at first found unnerving.
And, instead of feeling elated when he was born, the new mum felt numb with shock.
“I just could not believe I finally had a baby,” she said. “I kept expecting to be told something had gone wrong.”
But William was happy and healthy and was joined in 2017 by his little brother, Oliver – finally making Jayne and Steven’s years of anguish worthwhile.